You're loyal, but you have slip ups of being a fake friend. We have an idea on how to help you fix that which is, "Keeping your word". Your word is the bond. Your friendships matter to you but you also keep everyone at arm's length so no one can really cross you. Theres ways you can tell instantly when someone is down for you just pay attention to the details. Continue to practice self love, remember your loyalty will always be questioned by those who aren't meant for your love and loyalty.